In our lives in this planet as human beings, many occurrences normally take place that tend to influence the we act or make decisions. Basically, some of these events that we go through in life normally have a huge impact on individuals may make them in their lives. For my case, I have memories
of my childhood some good while some are bad, one particular memory is the life changing scenario happened when I was in 10 years old; from then January has always been both a tragic and special month due to the event that happed and how it changed my life and made me look at it from a different point of view, though I consider it special since it was life changing.
This is the day I witnessed my grandfather go through the pain of heart-attack. It is the words that my uncle used to console me that made me think twice about my life; “let grandfather rest, he has been fighting a bold and tough fight”, he said. Tears that were rolling deep my eyes could not be hidden as it was in the public domain that I really loved my grandfather and so all I could do was let them roll.
Unlike other days when we would be greeted by a joyous hello from XX grandfather XXXX we entered grandfather’s house, XXXX day XX were greeted by an Erie XX XXXXXXX in XXX house. Me together with XX XXXXX, cautiously proceeded XXXXXX in the unusual XXXXX house in search XX XX XXXXXXXXXXX. Suddenly, there was a horrifying XXXXX from XX grandfather from the XXXXX XXXX, XXXXX on XXX XXXXX he was XXXXXXX for XXXXXX, XXXXXX XX XXX chest XXXXXXXX XX survive heart XXXXXX. This XXXX XXXXXXX I cannot XXXXX XXXX I XXX from the XXXXXXXXX XX I only heard XXX XXXXX XX someone XXXXXXXX XX XXXXXX then XX running XX the room XXXX my XXXXX since XXXX last XX enter XXX XXXXX, we found him XXXXXXX XXX oxygen.
This XX XXX event XXXX XX XXXXX fresh on my XXXX XXXXXX it happened several XXXXX ago; having gone, XX the XXXXXXXX XXXX XX XX XXXX XXXXXXXX with my XXXXX and cousin, I expected everything XX XX normal; XXXXXXX, it XXXX not XXXXXX XXXX XXX I expected XXXXXX XX be, what I realized XX that particular time XXX XXXX XXXXXXX XXX XXXXX ever going XX be XXX same XXXXX for XXXXXXXX it would be XXXXXXXXX XX hear XXX XXXXXXXXX joyous XXXXX XX grandfather. Nothing can be XXXX XXXXXXX XXXX witnessing XXX person you love XXX XXXX rest XXXXXXXXXX XXXXX to XXXX XX XXXXX XXXX XXX sleep, all a prayed for XXX that God XX put XXX soul in better place XXX XXXX one XXX XX XXXX XXXXX.
XXXXXXXX the living room, her sight caught my XXXX, XXXXX he XXX XXXXX XXXX down. XX grandfather XXX XXXX XXX-faced and XX the XXXX shaken. XX a XXXXXX of five seconds, he would XX gulping XXX air. XX XXXXX, he XXXXXXX a XXX that XXX been XXX aside XXX XXXXXXXX XX disposing off XXXXX and violently vomited in it; this XXXXX made XX XXXXXX. This XXXXXXX to my realization XX XXXX it really meant for XX XXXXXXXXXXX XX XXXXXX XXXX XXXXX attack.XX XXX age XX ten, I XXX XXXXX with XXX XXXXXX XX XXXXXX XX XXXXXXXXXXX suffer this XXXXXXXX disorder. XXXX XXX XXXXXX XX her XXXX, he looked XXXXXXX my direction and indeed our XXXX XXX, I heard a weak “Hi,” XXXX XXX XXX XX vomit XXXXXXXXXX but this XXXX, he XXXXXX the can and XXXX a XXXX of the mattress that had XXXX lain down for XXX. My XXXX XXXX XXXXXX XX XXXX XXXX, XX XXXXX XXXXX besides me to XXX left put XXX XXXX on my back and XXX out a few XXXXX, “let grandfather rest, he XXX XXXX XXXXXXXX a bold and XXXXX XXXXX.”
My XXXXXXXX and the best story XXXXXX I’ve ever known XXX XXXX XXXXXXXX this terrible XXXXXXXX condition XXXX XXX every XXX XX his XXXX. XX worries XXXXX XXXX XXX time XXX XXXXXXX doctor who was XXXXXXXX XX him from XXX hospital XXXX that he XXX a few weeks XX live. Actually the words XXXX he XXX a XXX XXXXX to XXXX had XXXX XXXX XX him many XXXXX before I was XXXX; XX XX XXXXXXXX this XXX XXX XXXXXXXXX year since he was XXXX XXXX. By default my XXXXXX members XXX XXXXXXX only XXXXXXXXX that he was XXXXXX XX the mercy of XXX Lord; he had always been grateful XXX this XX he had XXXXXXX XXXX XXXXXXX times in many other occasions. He XXX XXXXXX XXXXXXXXXX XX XX be XXXXXX, XXX growing XX minus XXX was something I did not XXXX want to XXXXXXX. In my childhood I had always felt distanced XXXX XX XXXXX, I also acknowledge that in XXXXXXXXXX and middle school the students by default XXXXXX and XXXXXX XXXX XXXX other by ease. I on the other hand, by foil, XXX XXX quiet, shy and XXXXXXXX type XXXX in school and XX home. I feared XXXXXXXXXX to others so XXXX that I lacked XXX courage to XXXX XXXXX XXX spoke XX XX in XXX XXX.
XX a XXXXXX of XXXX the XXXXX students XXX the other XXXX in our neighborhood XXXX me XXXXXXXX nick names; in XXXXX I XXX the easy XXXXXX for bothering, this XXXXXXX XXX XXXXXXXX XXXXXXXX XX overall XXXXXX XXXXXXXXXXX. XX XXXX time, I XXXXX my mother XXX even lost interest in XX succeeding in school XXX XX XXX worst grades I brought home XXX after XXXXXXX; XXXX even further XXXX XX confidence. My XXXXXXXXXXX noticed XX poor XXXXXX and XXXXXXXXXX time XXXXX time XXX even gave XX XXXX XXXXX a social XXX; XXXXXXXXXX, there were XXXX improvements in my XXXXXX. Leaving XX stay in XXX XXXXXXXX where he XXXXX XX XXXXX therapies XXXXXXXXXX now XXXX XXXXXX were getting XXXXXX especially my grades was XXXXXXXXX I didn’t want to XXXXXX.
One particular XXX while XXXXXXXXX XX the XXXXXXX XX how other XXXXXXXX XXX XXXXXXXXXX well in XXXXXX, I recalled the XXXX XX XXXXX told me, “let your XXXXXXXXXXX rest, he XXX XXXX fighting a XXXX and tough XXXXX.” This XXXX XXXXX made XX realize an example of a way XX how XX change my XXXX XXXX XXX been in XXXXX XX me XXX this time XXXXX XX XXXXXXXXXXX was hospitalized; XX XXXXXXXXXXX had been XXXXXXXX XXXXX attack XX XXXXXXXXXX to live XXX XXX XXXXX XXXXXXX until XXXX now. Though XXXXXXXX XX live XXX day extra, this made XX realize that giving up was XXX an option and XXXX I could pass XXX XXXXXXXX XXX XXXXXX a XXXXXX XXXX XXX myself.
XXXX this, I XXXXXXXX XX mind such XXXX I would face my XXXXXXXXXX and XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX “XXXX XXX tough” as XX XXXXX puts it. XX XXXXX priority was to XXXX XXXX the XXXXXXX that was XX to XXXX time XXXXXXXXXXXX my XXXXXXXXXXX. I made a personal XXXXXXXX to XXXXX XX a student and XXXX towards XXXXXXXXX XX XXXXXX. XX XXXXXXXX, I simply decide XX XXXXX XXXX in XXX XXXXXXXXX and nicknames that XXXX XXXXX XX XX pass, I realized that what XXXX XXXX had no effect XX me and only XXXX affected me was only XX I XXX it sink in. In addition, I XXXXXXXX to XXXXX fear and XXXX XXXXXXXXXXX, I made a XXXXXXXX to never ever XXXX up on anything in XXXX. XXX resolution XX XXXXXX the five seconds rule helped a XXX XXXX XX fear management; XX make XXXX that XX XXX XX the same XXXX, XXX five XXXXXXX XXXX states XXXX when dealing with an XXXX or a thought XXXX it XX XXXX XXXX XXXXXX the XXXXX XXXX XXXXXXX XXXXXX XXX begins XX XXXXXXXXX it XXX avoid it XXXXXXXXXX. XXX these I overcame and I changed my XXXX XXXXXX to encouragement that I XXXXXXXX from XX XXXXXXXXXXX.
Believe you XX, XX XX now I’m XXXX happy of XX XXXXXXX in XXXXXXXX over my XXXXXXX. Having made a XXXXXXXX in XXth XXXXX to join ESL was XXX turning XXXXX in this; I knew XXXX XX XXXXX XXXX, I XXXXX XX able XX XXXXXX and talk XXXX XXXXXXXXXX with XX XXXXXXXXXX. XXXXXXXXXXX, for me I XXX more XXXXX with students than XXXXXX XXX I was XXXXXX class leader, XXXX XXXXXXX helped XX a great deal as it XXXXXXX XX speak XXXXXXXXXXX when XXXXXXXXXX XXXXX XXXXXXXXXX or teachers. XX in a nut XXXXX XXX XXX XXXXXX XXXXXXX my character in XXXX that I cannot even XXXXXXX. XXX I XXXXX XXX get XXXXXX XXX this XX XXX to XXX encouragement that I XXX given by XX storyteller and XX special XXXXXX. I am also XXXXXXXXXX to XXXXXXXX in XXX of XXX top rated universities just so that I don’t XXX her down; XXXX his love XXX XXXX XXXXXXXX which are XXXXXXXXX deeply in me.
XXXXXXXXXXXX, XXXXXXXXX, I’m at XXXX when XXXXXXXXXXX with my peers. XXXX XXXXXX XXX instance XX a XXXXXX XXXXXXX, I was called XXXX XX help in XXXXXXX of XXXXXX announcements; XX XXXXX confessed that I had improved a XXX unlike some few XXXXX back, “you XXXX XXXXXXXXXXX XXX XXXXXXXXXXXX in front XX the congregation”, he XXXX. I’m XXXXX XXX satisfied XXXX the changes I’ve made in my XXXX; XXX XXXXX I owe to XX grandfather XXX XXX never XXXXX XX side XXXX XXXXXX he is XXX XXXXXXXXX XXXXX patient. XXX XXXXXXXX XXXX heart XXXXXX XXXXX as XXX point in XXXXX I turned XXXX a new leaf.
Even now I continue to XXXXXX to XXXX XX college exams in XX XXXXXXX; XXXX XX challenge XXX still I XXXXXXXX XXXXXXX XXXXXXXXXX with the XXXX XXXXXXXXX that XX each XXX XXXX I XXX and do my best XXX live bravely the same XXX my grandfather XX I try XX XXXXXXXX XXX XXXXXXXXXX of XXXX. I can XXXXX XXXXX my XXXXXXXXXXX XXX XXX XXXX he has done XXX XX XXXXXXX the series XX encouragements and love he has XXXXXX shown to XX; to be honest my XXXXXXXXXXX has become XX XXXX model. XX hope is XXXX someday, XXXX years from XXXXX if XXX grants us XXXX I will say ,” my XXXXXXXXXXXXX, I’m XXXXX of you; you have been fighting the XXXX XXX tough fight.”
Lastly despite the XXXX that I XXXX my XXXXXXXXXXX XXXX XX XXX age XX XX, emotions such as anger XXX XXXXX XXXX in and played XXXXX. XXX XXXXX of his XXXXX in XX XXXX over XXX XXXX XXXXX XXXX XXXXXX he encouraged me XX be strong XX something XXXX XX XXXX is XXXXXXXXX XXXXXXX XXXXX he XX XXX XXXXXX XXXXX sometimes it XX a XXXXXXXXXX XX me. XX the times XXXX sadness attempts to XXXXX in, I XXXXXX XXXX XXXXXX XXXX death is XXXX of life.
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